Sunday, September 13, 2015

Knocked Down and Explosions

I'm not really sure exactly what is going on. I was knocked down hard by the 10th anniversary of a devastating personal tragedy. It was all I could do to complete day to day tasks and homeschool. It is the end of the round and my story is still bugging me. I contemplated not bothering for the rest of this round and just moving on, but the more I tried not to focus on how many days in a row I had gone without writing the more the story popped into my head. Do you know what it is like to try to concentrate on primary English lessons when some mad freak is calling lightening to set a huge pavilion full of people on fire and someone else is lobbing fireballs at them. Yes, I know it's a bit over the top, but my characters are getting frustrated and restoring to explosions in public to get my attention. Oh, the poor innocent bystanders.

I feel like I keep coming back to the same thing. The life I'm living VS the life going on in my head and I must tell you I'm getting on my own nerves. I know I have to decide what I really want to do and pursue it. I know homeschooling is a priority over writing, but I don't know how many things I can do while maintaining the small gains I have maid with my health.

I am aiming for writing and visiting ROW80 friends every day.

How are you all doing on your round? My hope is that it has been more productive than mine. Please leave me a comment to say hello. Don't forget to let me know where you are visiting from so I can follow you back and see what you're up to.


Photos from Pixabay.

7 comments:

  1. Maybe this is why so many creative-types are thought to be crazy. Those darn voices in my head never leave me alone either! Maybe you can appease them by spending just ten minutes a day, every day, to write down the dialogues they are having with you. At some point maybe all these ten minutes rambles with add up to something. What do you think? Could that work? I

    I pretty much just keep watching the film version of my next book in my head at night when I am trying to go to sleep. It helps to keep my characters away during the day - they must be catching up on their sleep.

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    1. Yes, this is how I feel. Like a film version of my story is playing in my head when I am not actively concentrating on something and sometimes even then. I am aiming for just 20 and taking it easy for now.

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  2. Oh I know exactly where you're coming from. I have been pulled left and right and right now up to my eyeballs in stress that I shouldn't be handling alone. I've tried to write a bit every day but there are days a few sentences can be pulling teeth. The brain says really you want me to be creative NOW? LOL. Better days are ahead for both of us though! And it's almost NaNo time! :) HUGS!

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    1. I am sorry you are having so much stress, too. Hoping things ease up for you soon. Hugs.

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  3. When my characters a go crazy, they go crazy.

    Maybe try small. Write something for 5 minutes. Doesn't need to be related to the WIP. If it's not working, try NOT writing for a week. Focus on the homeschooling and after a week try writing something a poem maybe, or a piece of flash fiction.

    It's okay to not know what you want. Try something different and see where it takes you.

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    1. That's an interesting idea. Something different you say? Oh and no one should be forced to read my poetry. I think I may have slept though those parts of English class.

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    2. I should share some of mine, and then you can show me yours. ;-)

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